Post by Stefan Salvatore on Oct 15, 2014 11:17:33 GMT -6
After Ivy had retreated upstairs out of harms way, he could't have her involved. Not in his past life, and that's exactly where he wanted it to remain. In the past. With Enzo's neck snapped as he lay unconscious on the floor among the rubble of what was his table and chairs. He made a mental note to try and find some vervain. With bagged human blood coursing through his system he needed to take any and all precautions that he could around Ivy.
Stefan had wanted to leave everything behind in Mystic Falls, his old life was gone. He had spent the last four months following every lead that Alaric sent his way on finding a way to bring Damon and Bonnie back. But in the end it always came to a dead end, having no choice, Stefan gave up his search for his brother.
Keeping his head low as he could feel the fiery gaze from his best friend Caroline. It had been four months since they had spoken and there was so much to say to her but he couldn't find the words. He had to let go off his old life and that included Caroline.
"You shouldn't have come Caroline" he murmured as he lowered his gaze again.
Caroline's gaze intensified as she folded her arms across her chest "Why? Because you told me? Because you answered my calls? Listened to all the messages I left you?" she spit back at him.
Stefan lowered his gaze to the floor, rolling his eyes as her words.
"You didn't listen to them...Did you" she ended stunned.
Stefan had seen every missed call, every message that Caroline had left him but he deleted them. He couldn't listen to them. Listening to them would have meant opening that part of him that he had tried to close and he couldn't go back there. He had to move on with his life, he needed to start again.
"That part of my life is over Caroline. It's time for me to move on, start again" he sighed.
Caroline gasped as her tongue clicked against her cheek "Start again? Seriously! You're brother died and so did Bonnie. The Traveller's kicked us out of Mystic Falls and now Elena is going on some forget-Damon quest, Alaric is a professor at college and Tyler is a raging wreck and Jeremy doesn't care about anything. And I needed you....Stefan. You were my best friend and I needed you" she ended in a hushed whisper.
Stefan wanted to tell Caroline that he missed her too, but he couldn't find the words. He couldn't go back, not now. Everything was different, Damon was dead and it was all because of him. He gave up searching for his brother and left his old life behind in Mystic Falls "I moved on Caroline. I am never going back, and if that means giving up everyone that I ever cared about...Then I will" he exclaimed harshly.
Caroline took a step back stunned, tears pricked in the corner of her eyes "You mean me" she pointed to herself.
"But we need you Stefan. I need you" she whispered fighting back the tears.
Stefan lowered his gaze further to the floor staring at her feet, he knew that he was hurting her and that was the last thing that he wanted to do. But he had no choice. All of his life he had put others before himself, their happiness before his own. But now this was his time to do something that made him happy for once. Especially now after learning that Elena had fallen for his brother when they were still together. It stung him, but he had to bury it before he allowed himself to feel anything. He was with Ivy now, but he didn't love her.
He may never love her, but he had to give it a shot. He had to try and leave everything that he once cared about behind him. He had to move on.
"You don't need me Caroline. You just like the idea of me being around you. So you don't have to feel guilty about Damon. So that you can pretend to feel sorry for me for loosing my brother" he hissed lying through his teeth.
Caroline looked on speechless, stunned at his outburst "Is that what you really think?" she looked on pained, a single tear rolling down her cheek "Well, after everything that we have been through together I thought you knew me better than that Stefan" she whimpered.
Stefan knew that he was breaking Caroline's heart by saying all of this too her, but with Caroline around it was going to make it impossible to move on with his life and begin fresh "Don't you get it Caroline? I don't want you hear? I don't want anyone here!" he snapped at her.
Silence fell upon them for a few moments before Stefan allowed himself a brief moment to breath and let out this built up welling sadness that was threatening to consume him.
"I hate you" she sneered as she took several steps closer towards him.
Stefan sighed "I couldn't care less, Caroline" he admitted, lying through his teeth.
Stefan looked behind Caroline to see Enzo still dead with a broken neck, his dinner table broken into pieces and food splattered across the floor. He had compelled Ivy to remain upstairs until he called her down. He had no idea how he was going to explain that "You should go" he lowered his head unable to look at her.
He knew that he was hurting Caroline by saying all of this but he couldn't have any pieces of his old life with him right now. If he was going to move on, he needed to leave everyone behind and that included Caroline Forbes.
"You're a dick. If you want him out, you can throw him out yourself" she sneered as she stormed past him.
Stefan had wanted to leave everything behind in Mystic Falls, his old life was gone. He had spent the last four months following every lead that Alaric sent his way on finding a way to bring Damon and Bonnie back. But in the end it always came to a dead end, having no choice, Stefan gave up his search for his brother.
Keeping his head low as he could feel the fiery gaze from his best friend Caroline. It had been four months since they had spoken and there was so much to say to her but he couldn't find the words. He had to let go off his old life and that included Caroline.
"You shouldn't have come Caroline" he murmured as he lowered his gaze again.
Caroline's gaze intensified as she folded her arms across her chest "Why? Because you told me? Because you answered my calls? Listened to all the messages I left you?" she spit back at him.
Stefan lowered his gaze to the floor, rolling his eyes as her words.
"You didn't listen to them...Did you" she ended stunned.
Stefan had seen every missed call, every message that Caroline had left him but he deleted them. He couldn't listen to them. Listening to them would have meant opening that part of him that he had tried to close and he couldn't go back there. He had to move on with his life, he needed to start again.
"That part of my life is over Caroline. It's time for me to move on, start again" he sighed.
Caroline gasped as her tongue clicked against her cheek "Start again? Seriously! You're brother died and so did Bonnie. The Traveller's kicked us out of Mystic Falls and now Elena is going on some forget-Damon quest, Alaric is a professor at college and Tyler is a raging wreck and Jeremy doesn't care about anything. And I needed you....Stefan. You were my best friend and I needed you" she ended in a hushed whisper.
Stefan wanted to tell Caroline that he missed her too, but he couldn't find the words. He couldn't go back, not now. Everything was different, Damon was dead and it was all because of him. He gave up searching for his brother and left his old life behind in Mystic Falls "I moved on Caroline. I am never going back, and if that means giving up everyone that I ever cared about...Then I will" he exclaimed harshly.
Caroline took a step back stunned, tears pricked in the corner of her eyes "You mean me" she pointed to herself.
"But we need you Stefan. I need you" she whispered fighting back the tears.
Stefan lowered his gaze further to the floor staring at her feet, he knew that he was hurting her and that was the last thing that he wanted to do. But he had no choice. All of his life he had put others before himself, their happiness before his own. But now this was his time to do something that made him happy for once. Especially now after learning that Elena had fallen for his brother when they were still together. It stung him, but he had to bury it before he allowed himself to feel anything. He was with Ivy now, but he didn't love her.
He may never love her, but he had to give it a shot. He had to try and leave everything that he once cared about behind him. He had to move on.
"You don't need me Caroline. You just like the idea of me being around you. So you don't have to feel guilty about Damon. So that you can pretend to feel sorry for me for loosing my brother" he hissed lying through his teeth.
Caroline looked on speechless, stunned at his outburst "Is that what you really think?" she looked on pained, a single tear rolling down her cheek "Well, after everything that we have been through together I thought you knew me better than that Stefan" she whimpered.
Stefan knew that he was breaking Caroline's heart by saying all of this too her, but with Caroline around it was going to make it impossible to move on with his life and begin fresh "Don't you get it Caroline? I don't want you hear? I don't want anyone here!" he snapped at her.
Silence fell upon them for a few moments before Stefan allowed himself a brief moment to breath and let out this built up welling sadness that was threatening to consume him.
"I hate you" she sneered as she took several steps closer towards him.
Stefan sighed "I couldn't care less, Caroline" he admitted, lying through his teeth.
Stefan looked behind Caroline to see Enzo still dead with a broken neck, his dinner table broken into pieces and food splattered across the floor. He had compelled Ivy to remain upstairs until he called her down. He had no idea how he was going to explain that "You should go" he lowered his head unable to look at her.
He knew that he was hurting Caroline by saying all of this but he couldn't have any pieces of his old life with him right now. If he was going to move on, he needed to leave everyone behind and that included Caroline Forbes.
"You're a dick. If you want him out, you can throw him out yourself" she sneered as she stormed past him.
Lowering his head in disgust at himself, he had to let her go, he couldn't go after her. He needed to move on with his life and if that meant hurting her then he had no choice. Mystic Falls and everyone that he loved and cared about would remain there. He had to move on, he had no choice. He had already fought with himself over flipping the switch so that he could forget everything and everyone.
Caroline's words stung him like a blade through his chest. But he had no choice, he had to send her away. It was breaking him seeing her again, he cared for Caroline deeply, far more deeply than he should. Caroline was everything to him, but if he was to truly move on. He had to give her up, no matter how much it hurt him.
Caroline's words stung him like a blade through his chest. But he had no choice, he had to send her away. It was breaking him seeing her again, he cared for Caroline deeply, far more deeply than he should. Caroline was everything to him, but if he was to truly move on. He had to give her up, no matter how much it hurt him.